Feeling down and low

Its been around 2 weeks of feeling very down and low and this week seemed to have been the worse of it. It can't have helped working a new shift meaning I'm a bit more tired on a night now. It can't help that I don't have the money to be able to really go out. It also can't be helped that I've not been taking drugs, well so to speak the little white ones they call pills. 3 years of taking them and it's not like I took one or two on a night out and now I've gone to none, though I feel better in myself I've become quite dependant on them on nights out. Remember pills are not addictive but you can become very dependant on them depending on the lenght of time on them and the doses. Plus I have finally booked myself into the doctors for next week to see why I've been feeling ill all the time so that's a little worry on my mind too. I guess this could be my cue to now finally remain off pills for good but that does not stop me feeling down and moody along with everything else. The relationship is going good, but I'm still adjusting to living with a boyfriend again, after all it has been a few years since I had that luxury so I've got quite a bit of stuff to juggle here and all at the same time. I guess things always get worse before they get better and I'm pretty sure over the next few weeks I'm be back on form again.