I arrived home from work today to have an email from a very expected person, someone I have thought of in the past and wondered about attempting to make contact with but always decided against. Someone I don't remember in the slightest and have quite happily lived without all my life and have not had contact with for around 20 years but today I had an email from my Dad. I can't believe it, I feel really shocked and speechless and I can't really describe how I feel. I don't know if I'm happy or sad or what, I'm just so confused I really just cannot believe it. I'm in a position to contact my dad now but I don't know what to do for the best. Shall I ignore the email or contact him, but if I contact him where will this then lead.
He has missed so much of my life that he has missed that much of stuff about me that even I can't remember that far back lol
My family life with my mum and brother and sisters
My school life
Relationships and Friends Ive got and had
All the problems I've had in life in the past, how I have grown up and overcome what I've gone through that makes me who I am today and how I've turned out the person I am
My first job and how my career developed into where I am now
All the birthdays and Christmases missed and I am after all 24 now. A grown adult
I'm sure every person in the world missing one parent often questions why they are like they are, why they look like they look, where their traits from etc etc. Is there other missing family from the missing parents side. I have only ever seen half of the reasons I am like I am. All good lol, nothing bad about me, well apart from the annoying stuff about me but that's the whole point, my personality comes from 2 people.
Choices Choices, a very lot to think about but I think deep down I already know what the right thing is to do but once I've slept on it a day or 2 or what ever I'll then decide what to do. I've spoke to my mum already about it and she said the choice is up to me.
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