Lost

I'm feeling lost, lonely and heartbroken now that I'm single but its something I seem to go through time and time again, something I'm far too experienced in which can't be a good thing I'm sure. Its an all too familiar feeling I've had time and time again and I don't like it. What next for me? Who Knows.. Things could have been very different by the little purchase that I made a few days ago but fate had it's say in this one. But moving on from this. What's my options now?

I've asked my manager how I go about a transfer to another call centre in the UK so that has left me with one option. Moving into my own place within Sheffield or the area is another. Staying here is another option.

Finding myself another man is another option, hmmm here we go again the whole getting to know them, dating etc etc, same old routine that tires and bores me. I don't know if I have learnt anything from this relationship. Men simply don't know how to take me or handle me. I know I'm hard work but I'm sure there will be someone who will be able to handle me and get to know the me that takes such a long time to do and take me for how I am and appreciate me as the person that I am. After all we are who we are and that can't be changed, not that I would change anything about me. I like who I am. I like what I have become. A challenge in life, a challenge to me. A challenge to men.