No New Boyfriend

I need to clear a little rumour up that I have a new boyfriend. People seem under the impression that because I'm seeing someone, which to me means nothing like boyfriend. Seeing someone to me is to see if things could work as a relationship, to see how we get along and that will include going out for meals and general stuff like that. Actually I've known Richard a long time, which might be a good thing in the event of a relationship, plus he is drug free and older and I used to really like him at one point so I'm kinda juggling my feelings a little at the moment, especially as I still have a lot of strong feelings for John. I can't just make them vanish. I'm in a difficult position now and choices have to be made. What ever happens what does the future now have in store.

Anyway to carry on my main point. If you go to speed dating does that mean you have a boyfriend because your seeing someone because your getting to know them, no of course not. I've not decided if and when I want a relationship as yet but I would like to keep my options open and if someone comes along that can give me what I want out of a relationship and make me happy then I will act on that.

Anyway as far as I remember when I last looked, someone ended the relationship with me so why sit around crying and been upset, it won't change things. I'm a single agent now looking to be happy in life.

Well anyway, moving on work was ok today apart from systems freezing and crashing all day but it was a nice day of selling and I've seen the managing rota so I will be covering a team for a full month, the longest I've covered at one time, this will be on a different floor to the one I work on with a team of people I've never seen nor met really. Also that sofa bed I won, well I got vouchers instead for £140 that adds to the vouchers I received on Saturday for some target I had managed to over achieve on at work so I've almost £200 to go shopping with on my day off. Oh and my tax is sorted finally. I did not get any tax back but I did not pay any this month, which I assume works itself out. Oh and my next months pay will have a pay rise and I believe I'm expecting another one in April too.