A U Turn

I think I can finally be saying I feel like I'm getting back on track. Speaking to a friend Russel this morning made be realise that I am indeed turning by life back around in a U turn to how I were before I got involved in stuff I have. Russel knew me from my days of no drugs when I were dead against them and when I never smoked and when I had high morals in what I look for and what in life.

So whilst I continue changing the big things such as drugs and smoking, which is going really well. I've already cut away from going on the gay scene as much and plan to continue that way too but things I need to change now are to concentrate on more important things in my life such as my friends, work and a new relationship, things that have suffered over the past few months with how I have been. To be honest though I've been through some very tough times in my life and though I can be knocked down I always get back to myself again but it just takes time. I'd expect to be back on track fully over the next few months, I believe it would have been sooner if I'd chosen to keep smoking and keep drugs in my life because stopping these especially the drugs had a massive effect on my head.

Anyway as for a man in my life, well someone that is a little older, drug free and enjoys going to different places and does not feel the need to go to gay clubs every weekend. I don't mind if he smokes or not, so as long as they are open to doing other things, enjoy nights in too and stuff like eating out and the cinema etc then I'm sure we will be a suited pair. Mind they are gonna have to take me as I am but least I always warn people of how I can be and don't hide that fact.

And I think I've met this person already. I have said I don't want to rush things or jump into anything but we can see things go.