Drunken Night

Saturday night was an all out action packed, drama night at Dempsey's, no only joking just the normal usual night out in Dempsey's. Mind though I did get a tad on the drunk side as did Matt but Russel of course does not drink.

Patrick was out and we said hello and only hello, this is the first time we have spoke in a week, once I had left Dempsey's he did text me but before going into that, once I left Dempsey's at around 2.30am I decided I wanted food so walked about for ages unable to find anywhere, it was raining and though I had money in my pocket it took me an hour to stumble home walking in the rain, hungry and with money in my pocket to get a cab. I'm unsure which route I took but a 5 minute journey in a cab or 20 minute or so walk took an hour. Did I even get food? No

Matt arrived to mine around 4am. The night has been OK I guess, I can never usually say I've had a fantastic night in there, a good night I do but not usually fantastic but then again going to the same place a lot can have that effect.

Moving on to Patrick now so yes again he has been in contact attempting to make amends, though I had decided against him been in my life part of me is now wondering can I really throw 3 year close friendship down the pan? Can things become how they were? or is it too late now?

I had wanted to just close the door on this one but I'm going to re think my decision as he does appear to be trying to make the effort but that only slightly goes in his favour, I would still have concerns that I need to address.

Sunday

After having around 6 hours sleep it was time to go work at Russel's to pay back money I owed him, only £35 like so me and Matt went through to do the chores and spent best part of the day there. Matt was earning his own money by the way, as I just made it sound like we were both working to pay off my £35

Tonight was Dempsey night for a little while, a tad busier than usual, stayed here a couple of hours before going back home. I do have work tomorrow after all and sligtly earlier than planned so I need to feel partly normal at least, hmmm I think I need to feel normal in the head as well as I think I may have just let my barriers down a little bit and now gained some feelings for someone. However I'm a grown mature adult who can sort these things out myself.